When time goes round, i saw you smiling at her. not me.

Today, 6may
- Disappointing to see love is all this.

Sorry readers, i still can't blog until as if i'm okay,
But actually i'm not even feeling that way.

I doesn't blame anyone seriously, i just blame myself
why i fall inlove, why must i put in my 100%. Just blame myself for
being this way, ( huiyu you deserve it) Yes, whatever~

I'm not fine at all. You can choose to be with who and who,
cause like what yangyang say, it's nothing to do with me anymore.
Cause i doesn't belong to you anymore.

Cry doesn't save anything, die doesn't even solve problems.
What should i do? Yes, i already understand everything but yet,
i'm not moving ): (huiyu, jiayou bahs)

Like what jie told me yesterday, i really think thats it's his fault.
But i just couldn't blame him, although he hurt me but i just doesn't know
why i didn't blame him! He stole my heart away ( help) .

What i told wifey, i wouldn't break down, but there's nothing for me
to do. By just crying nothing is gonna change! (gosh, am i like mad or what?)
i still act as if it's really doesn't matter to me, but things happen.
If it's you, what will you do?

Times heal? i guess time is blowing out blood on me.
I only know how to say, how how how what to do what to do.
Nothing else i know. )':

Kick those pain please, understanding is not my talent.
Being cheerful, this should be me, why i can't find back anymore.
Hais. This is all i have. This three months, so many question to ask.

I still have to laugh for friends, hide my unhappiness in a corner.
Telling my family i'm okay, but actually i'm not.
Telling myself, time heals but actually it's a lie.

Thanks people for being there, i really appreciate but
obviously i'm not okay yet ):

Love cant choose who it want to be with,
But you and me have a choice. Although my choice is being with you,
but your choice ain't me. This is not a break, this is not a holiday, but
it's a hurting ending.

Sorry boy, promise don't come easy.