stop, i don't want to be a idiot hanging around you anymore.
Boy, i want to love you, i will love you, but please stop doing anything that will hurt me deeply.
I couldn't take it anymore. Just secretly move out from my heart, walk away quietly.
maybe i will find you some day, but for now, i'm really tired.

I tried hard, i tried less, i tried alot of times, but when i saw you in dream holding her hands,
i woke up and cry and cry, i couldn't take it. i know you do love her, i know i'm no longer important to you, but please, care for my feeling, it's hurting it's pain.

I'm not asking for any pity, but i just wish you can really understand how i really feel.
me and you is not one or two day, it's the 96 days. 3mth and 4days.
you expect me to forget everything? i can feel the pain, i feel the un-tasty taste.
do you have this kind of feel before?

i don't know why, i told myself, not to think not to listen, not to ask, but me myself,
keep thinking until my dream every night having you in there, not just you. Is you with her.
Ain't this hurting? i wouldn't blame, complain or saying myself is pity.

right now, i just know tears never gonna stop for anything!
friends, you guys told me stop thinking, move on with life, but when this really happen to you,
trust me, you will feel the same way. I know you people is for my good. But understand why
i cry, why i mention him, why i say i want him.

It's really really pain if i keep my pain inside. which i can't say, can't do anything, just keep inside,
and act as if im really happy. Trust me, it's more than the pain in my heart, is more than everything!

When i cry, what i told myself is, he will never gonna come back, i know i should give him up,
i know i should go on with life, i know i shouldn't cry, and break down.but just trust me, i can't .!
everything i say, is not that i'm gonna do. I'm going to give up, but i can't ! i will not be a idiot hanging
around you, i can't! it's more than pain, more than hurting, more than i'm neglected by everyone!

Words is easy to say, but its doesn't even work!
yes, i'm not like strong like you think, i'm not everything that you can see!
comparing to other people, i'm fake, i'm loser, i'm weak!

imagine, when you are down, there's someone who always be there, and there's always be
some one who hug you tight in his chest, someone who always bring you home, and to school,
some one who message you everyday, people if this thing is gone in a sudden, what will you do?
I guess you will rather go mad! It's more than everything now! i'm not joking. Don't say you understand!
cause you doesn't understand at all.

i promise to forget you, i swear. Just give me time! i want to forget. I don't want to be pain anymore.!
I want to be back the girl who is so irritating, so hyper, running around like mad, jumpping up and down.
Fall and climb up again!

believe me people, just some more time, you will see my tears disappear on my faces.

Sorry friends for crying infront of you people. sorry if i scare you.

I cried hard today!

放弃是因为爱得太深
爱得太深才对自己没把握
要用放弃作赌注。
输了，是因为对方不够爱你。