Why

I have so much to blog, but when i feel like blogging out, i feel like it's childish . No point crying over for a guy like that , worst thing is he doesn't know how i feel. So whats the point ? But im crying like a idiot now ! In the middle of the night, yet so many foolish things is done by me !

I don't know why people's love can easily express it out, or even say it out . But why my love should play hide and seek , why my love is always bleeding and need to stay in the hospital ! Dare to love but yet don't dare to say . What kind of soul am i ? Why people treating me like that yet i didn't know how to react ? I feel im really dumb !

Im really stupid right ? Always didn't express myself well, when people leave than i know how to cherish, than i know how to cry and shout pain, hurt and cry again , start going around telling people im not fine at all. Why can't people just cherish what they have ? Why fact must always hurt people at last ? Why fact can't hide a side ?

Dear reality , im really tired . Let me off alright ? Im really going crazy if i continue to be like this . Why i totally can't be myself when i wanted to ? Why things got more complicated when i dont want to ? Why i can't be like those girls say what they want, love what they want, get over what they want ?

Love is a lesson, but why are there people trying to play around this lesson ? Why are there fake teachers ? Those fake teacher's homework are really terrible difficult those exam the set, is totally dictionary's thickness . Why they can't be kind abit, gentle abit, polite abit ? why must they be so evil, so wanting us to die !

My dear love, you're too hurting. Why are you so evil that you hurt someone who cherish you so much so much ! Please take those pain, hurt, reality and fake teachers back, i dont need them . I just want you. I want you so much so much !

My dearest heart, stop your stubborn please. i can't take up those pain anymore. I'm really tired, really really tired .