That will be the last thing i do

Start packing my room for goodness sake, cause my room is totally in a mess like rubbish room, i guess. Can you imagine how messy is my room is? You can find anything everywhere. I couldn't deny I'm a lazy pig, laughs, indeed making people disappointed. Like what my mum always say, ' That guy you marry to must be rich enough to hire a maid to clean your house ' Well, i hope the future there is someone whom can really affort to hire a maid to clean up my house, that's enough already. Just for laugh, ok whatever.

I packed my room and i found somethings that i forgot about it. It's my dairy, i flip through and i found out that I'm a so typical girl, that full with emotion. I though that I'm always the way i am now. Somehow very stupid, very dumb crying over little stuff like, got dump by guys and neglected by friends. I wonder why this kind of emotion sounds very familiar to me, i guess humans feel this way everytime too. Everything is no longer important actually, future is the forward, no the backwards.

I found photos, neoprints that i love to keep in past, it's quite a recall for me, as i forget that theses things is still alive. So i kept them well. Now my room is much more cleaner. You could able to see the table books are neaty arranage, little decorate stuff are all nicely put up, and most important thing is, you can see my mini lappy beautifully on the table! V. That is more like a room.

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I can't deny i don't like explaining, but i finally know, what i always want is explaination. If this world doesn't have explaination, things wouldn't get clear and things will get worst. I finally know all this while, all i want is this 'explaination' So people, if things that i don't know please explain to me, cause I don't have any special ability to feel it, or even find out. Just a explain, i will be a good soul not to bother you anymore.

I'm preparing to meet up my darlings.

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you