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i cant stand it anymore. Those fear, confuse, mess is all coming back to me. I dont know what happen. Out of that sudden, im so confuse. Perhaps, im afaird. Afaird of everything that may happen. Since so long, i still able to feel, recall and etc. But.. i told myself, no one is gonna be perfect, and i wouldnt be the no one. I blame, why must this information get into my ear. Go right deep in my heart. i doesnt understand either. Detest love, what i said before. But now i guess nothing could stop me. What i can do is falling deeper each day, every single day. Even me myself could stop. Emotional come along, am i going to run? I perhaps everything. I suppose to go well and fine. Now? i end up like .. Idiot. Love is lie, a lie which im addicted to now. I cried many times, over little things. I try my best to get over, but so simply, i cant. Infront yes, im alright im fine. But whenever i mention him, i feel like crying. Big crying out. How i wish i have the power to smile always, be happy be cheerful. Who doesn't wish to have this power? But i need it more. Though my problem is like.. a peanut to people. but i couldnt take it ): I tried to think, It's doesnt matter at all, but i still hardly breathe. Finally realise actually i aint that special anymore, im forgotten long ago. No point for me to cry anymore, but i can't. I tried not to make my friends worried, but i always failed. what ever fact that come to me, why you doesnt know what i can do is, accept . At last, i know you doesnt love me, but what i can do is nothing. too late for saving, Am i suppose to let go? Though over all, there's no more reason for me to hold on. Give up or not. I suppose. i need a rest, im tired. Im confuse. Im afaird.
I still... do miss you
i cant stand it anymore. Those fear, confuse, mess is all coming back to me. I dont know what happen. Out of that sudden, im so confuse. Perhaps, im afaird. Afaird of everything that may happen. Since so long, i still able to feel, recall and etc. But.. i told myself, no one is gonna be perfect, and i wouldnt be the no one. I blame, why must this information get into my ear. Go right deep in my heart. i doesnt understand either. Detest love, what i said before. But now i guess nothing could stop me. What i can do is falling deeper each day, every single day. Even me myself could stop. Emotional come along, am i going to run? I perhaps everything. I suppose to go well and fine. Now? i end up like .. Idiot. Love is lie, a lie which im addicted to now. I cried many times, over little things. I try my best to get over, but so simply, i cant. Infront yes, im alright im fine. But whenever i mention him, i feel like crying. Big crying out. How i wish i have the power to smile always, be happy be cheerful. Who doesn't wish to have this power? But i need it more. Though my problem is like.. a peanut to people. but i couldnt take it ): I tried to think, It's doesnt matter at all, but i still hardly breathe. Finally realise actually i aint that special anymore, im forgotten long ago. No point for me to cry anymore, but i can't. I tried not to make my friends worried, but i always failed. what ever fact that come to me, why you doesnt know what i can do is, accept . At last, i know you doesnt love me, but what i can do is nothing. too late for saving, Am i suppose to let go? Though over all, there's no more reason for me to hold on. Give up or not. I suppose. i need a rest, im tired. Im confuse. Im afaird.
I still... do miss you
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