Twenty Seven Again.

I think it's very stupid telling people how sad i am. but i promised alot people that i wouldn't keep things to myself, as i told some people about it. and so hopefully, nothing is done. I have alot of advise on hands but yet, i don't wish to move on . That's the reason why i'm sad. Now, just believe me . I will allow myself to enjoy the day with tears, i will stand up for myself to be stronger. Cause there's people who love me. I know love ain't forever, i know love will not be everything in life. Im not hinting whatever things, but just telling myself be stronger, that's the thing i want to say. My post isn't nice today, so please if you don't like to read, you can leave now. I swear i wouldn't make you stay (as i don't wish people wouldn't continue reading too)

Yesterday was really nice chatting with Huu, guanleongg and heihei. Disturbing Yuekai and Yazi. After that i went home, i told yazi not to follow me up the bus but he followed at last . (you promise de lohzx, you break it !) Nehminds, i need to go home early cause i told mummy i will get home at 8.30 . That day my class bbq, i reach home late . And got scolding . So this time i wouldn't allow that to happen. So went off early :) (Big thank you to guanleong for inviting ya) When home, message message, staring at the television for hours and 12 i went to sleep. And slept to the next afternoon 12 today. Actually i woke up at 8am, cause sam called me. i don't know what is he up to har ? called me so early . Lols. so i didn't pick up anyway.

House is empty. Full with silents souls flying around. Without noticing, i became mute too . *bigsigh* i guess i don't update here anymore. I shall update my dairy more often.

PS dont neglect feelings that are appearing infront of. don't run away from the fear that can be over-come. never never throw away the feeling that you think you cherish it most. Cause all the above you will turn out regretting. I don't want that to happen in my life.

PS thank you yazi for understanding everything. I can't do much for you, yet you did so much to me. I seem like a very weak doll infront of you. But thanks alot, greatly appreciated !

PS dairy, can you tell everyone what i told you last night ? ): i feel like saying so much so much !

为什么被爱　有时却觉得悲哀
为什么我还是害怕一个人醒来
为什么相爱　日子却依然空白
为什么你　走不到我的未来
让爱固定下来　我不会永远青春可爱
我的美丽要你的温柔帮我保留下来
让爱固定下来　我和你　不要不要分开
我不要爱一再一再彩排
我不是每次失恋后都能从新再来