Har ?

even when things happen. I think i couldn't believe it. so what if i really know, i can't really do anything indeed. Funny thing is, i look like a dumb ass when i was wondering things like that. Infact, i told myself " thats it. you just get off from here " What is really wrong manzx. I couldn't even pay all my attention in anything. Once i get off the mask, i realise how stupid i am . One thing is, i couldn't believe i did those laughing by myself. Infact, i smile it that way. Why things happen and i doesn't know what iszit. Thinking back it's quite funny indeed. Just like a funny ass dumb infront of . But, still im alone. So well done, i shall face it alone like that. I swear, this feeling ain't good at times. But so what's wrong. I doesn't deserve anything right ? Seriously i think i have some kind of Two-sided person. Laughing so madly like nobody business infact, i was wondering what i did this to myself. Am i mad or what ? So just be it. Im anything that can be pushed away, i can be anything that i can be used for. So what else i am ? Just a name, Huiyu ? laughzx. Maybe im just a name like that. Im living in this name, and this name causes me to become a mask, like i can remove at night, when im alone ! So what, just leave me alone for goodness sake !

who will know im crying at nights . who knows when i'm alone, im even afraid (though the feeling is really not bad). who knows when i'm hopeless . Who knows i doesn't pay attention during working hours at times. who knows why i have so much things that people doesn't know !! I doesn't know either. So what am i wondering when people doesn't bother. So hopefully, i will still think about it. I doesn't know what there's kind souls in this world. Why not turn me into a stronger person, a girl full with character , full with confident. Even im alone, even peoples' concern, or even even watching television i wouldn't drop my stupid tears. Infact im the other way round. When you really look at the side of me, i supposed you will think " this aint you right? you must be joking " Infact, im weaker than you think. Whatever iszit, dont believe what you see from your eyes. What happen infront, might be a lie. To me, action is fact, but not really at times. But at least, what is real and fake, i could able to compare it out. So what else ? infact, dream .

"a stronger person, a girl full with character , full with confident. Even im alone, even peoples' concern, or even even watching television i wouldn't drop my stupid tears."
i really wish to turn to this kind of girl, hard to get near. Infact protecting myself greatly. Wont allow a tiny winy bit of hurt enter my life. When i need the courage, i will have it. The confident that people doesn't have. Like the one standing on stage, singing the song that wrote by herself, describe peoples' heart souls, smiling to people whom doesn't know her, thats the her i wanna be. Ruien the story, i should learn, the one i think i should be stronger .

PS don't care what i wrote above. As i doesn't know what am i talking either. You can just hack it. Cause nothing important yo ? (: