I couldnt sleep D':
Haihais, Wells, i rlly hope tml i can
do contact!. Hais*

FuckFuckFuckI miss him so badly D':
Really miss him! && I doesn`t know to make myself not to
Sighs* I rather scream cry & pain, than i goes crazy.
Sigh to make him feel relif. i have to smile &
act nothing is happening. Is have been 11days alr,
I`m slowly forgetten by him, i guess.
From lover to friends, Which i still love him.
I`m keep saying i`ll be strong and bullshits,
but now, i really know, people ain`t strong at times.
They are acturally weak like grass.

No one in this world is strong, & seriously i`m not strong at all.
Time heals ? what a joke, time doesn`t heals,
Cox time can`t really give people what they really wan.
Although i know i wrote this will be read by him.
But im just saying the truth, Yea, i admit i love you still.
I couldnt forget you & cant simply just treat you ask fren.
You can? I TOTALLY CANT!

Yes, Maybe you alr give me up. && i`m alr being forgetten.
But i just going so mad seriously.
I dare not look at you face to face no matter how
i wish to see you.
I`m not a actress, i doesn`t need to act my emotionals.
& seriously my heart really feel damm pains,
every night i`ll cried to sleep.
So sorry that i bluff you i`m ok, I need to have
so much job after the breaking up.
Infront of parents have to laugh & make them smile.
Infront of you and ur frens i have to act i`m brave & strong
Infront of my sister, i have to say im ok seriously.
Infront of the camera, i have to smile happily.
Seriously i`m tired of fake things !

Maybe you might not love me anymore, No! you doesnt love me anymroe.
So what should i do? Cried? Doesn`t help seriously.
Cut my hands? Its kinda stupid and silly
Continue acting its superly tired.

Wells, i just have to carry on my life yea? maybe next year?
or next next year? will we be like this agains?
I guess nnot, cox at that time, Your heart alr belongs to other
her, and the her will be ur precious dearest darlin.
Aint me anymore.

Think about it, its really heartbreaking, So what else can i do?
Say whats in my mind? Laughs * no one will listen, come on!
Even if theres someone will listen,
they might not help anything. Even if its you,
cox frankly you doesn`t care anymore.
The reality shows clearly, You doesn`t love me anymore.
Maybe you didnt have a person in ur heart yet, But
i guess i really dont have the breathe to gain you back.
Like last time? 3 mths ago? I just doesn`t know how do
i really overcome my pains & emo, Laughing non stop infront of
every single one.

Someone acturally told me,
Loves is just child`s play/game.
Ain`t true @ all, what for putting so much in?
End up? You know urself, cox now what you are gng through
is what everyone inlove`s ending.

Wells, maybe its truth, I`m too small to understand?
Laughs * Seriously so much relationship.
I fall deeper for you, cox u told me before,
I wont hurt you like how your ex does.
end up, you`re the one hurting me most
But so what? I`m forgotten alr.
Its really not stop, but ending
How i really wish it ain`t a ending
I really wan you back D:

Maybe school makes me happy ? I doesn`t wna resist w love.
Its really v v tired. sorry my boy
I`m still gona wait, but will be other way.
That will be the best for me and you

This is what i`m gona say, i think i can get to bed alr,
Takecares my readers good nights !