Hey guys,
my schedule is in a mess. Like, my school work, my part time jobs, accompany my family, some dating with my bf and girlfriends and time for myself. Everything is so messed up, I seriously need to manage my time.
Not sure why, i feel like i have no time. Like everything seem so rush. September not yet over, my October seem fully occupied already. By my school, part time job and also my bf. What about my awesome girls? :( I miss girls outing so much so much. It's really so long i go shopping with my bff and girlfriend. Time is really not enough at all.
And soon, October will wave goodbye and November will say hi, and yes officially I'm going to suffer in the two months of attachment and all the way till the end of December, I'm officially graduated from Simei ITE, how fast you tell me? My two years inside, after so many so many up and downs, everything is going to end SO SOON. which I'm very sad about it. Is like, I'M GOING TO GRADUATE!! Awww...
Not sure what's so happy about graduating -.-
..... sometimes you just have to accept it, even if you don't like? Cause this is life man.
The reason I don't want go to the end of this year is because of ATTACHMENT. I hate it so much, even though the pay is like... amazing then the others.
BUT OHwell.. actually I'm just worry. Worrying about my attachment will be a horrible one. I can't imagine the days when i have to like..
After I pick up my current part time job, something is getting lesser? It's my fear.
Actually I have fear towards a new environment, or maybe working? I don't know but I'll feel like damn scare of something when I start to work, worst come to worst, I'll feel damn breathless. Remember the first time I work was at, suntec popular book fair. I'm damn afraid of everything there, manager, working mate everything. Until I saw familiar faces there, i realize it's a joy to work there, but it's only last 10 days.
The second job was at YN and my fear come up again. I told myself to calm down that time but nothing works. My legs were so heavy to move for work. I feel damn shag everyday. &I extremely hate weekends, cause I'm working only on the Friday Saturday and Sunday. My legs hurts like mad, and daily I just like doing nothing there. &I feel damn damn useless. I tried all ways to make myself useful, i tried all ways to make things right. But nothing works, the whole environment don't work on me. So school reopen, i stop working there.
I remember when my 9 days ended, i was like "YAY MAN IT FINALLY ENDED". At that time I realize, i prefer studying more then anything else! School is great, school is awesome, everything feel so damn good in school. Really.. You can say I'm timid, I don't mind. Cause i admit i am. I don't like to work, what i don't like. Get me?
&The 3rd job, was at Houyu? I enjoyed that job a lot, everything there were just too fun, I was there, to work, to learn and to enjoy. Maybe also part of the reason was working with my classmates? I felt that everyday there, was awesome to the max! No words could describe.
And yes, this is my 4th time working. Maybe you can say I'm lucky or what. But i seriously regretted not working when i was like 13. I really regretted.
But well, i enjoy my part time job now. I really do, cause people there are easy to click with. They ain't like giving me a face, like i owe them something, you know. Well...
I seriously don't like doing things when i don't have confidence. Like YN? i know nothing about there, i don't know everything. Even the methods of how they wash hair is so different from what i learn in school. I have no confidence to do ANYTHING. No one there cheer me up, only one of babe there. She is awesome. I guess without her around, I'm really going mad.
Forget it, I'll face it like a man! (this is what bf always tell me) But well.. I believe i can do it, i believe god will guide me, bless me!
I'll be like this guy! If I'm strong enough I'll pull the two man and bang them together. If I'm not strong enough i'll be killed by the two man pulling the string around my neck. How does it sound? Cool isn't it? HA.
or this ?
this is good
I know it's random to say this but when I'm looking at this picture.. I was thinking if one day my boyfriend turns into a macho man, and I make him damn mad over something. I think if he box me, I'll fly to somewhere. Maybe a meter away? HAHA, before he box me, I'll kick his ass first :o So, watch out baby!!
p/s: Some people deserve my trust, some people don't.
my schedule is in a mess. Like, my school work, my part time jobs, accompany my family, some dating with my bf and girlfriends and time for myself. Everything is so messed up, I seriously need to manage my time.
Not sure why, i feel like i have no time. Like everything seem so rush. September not yet over, my October seem fully occupied already. By my school, part time job and also my bf. What about my awesome girls? :( I miss girls outing so much so much. It's really so long i go shopping with my bff and girlfriend. Time is really not enough at all.
And soon, October will wave goodbye and November will say hi, and yes officially I'm going to suffer in the two months of attachment and all the way till the end of December, I'm officially graduated from Simei ITE, how fast you tell me? My two years inside, after so many so many up and downs, everything is going to end SO SOON. which I'm very sad about it. Is like, I'M GOING TO GRADUATE!! Awww...
Not sure what's so happy about graduating -.-
..... sometimes you just have to accept it, even if you don't like? Cause this is life man.
The reason I don't want go to the end of this year is because of ATTACHMENT. I hate it so much, even though the pay is like... amazing then the others.
BUT OHwell.. actually I'm just worry. Worrying about my attachment will be a horrible one. I can't imagine the days when i have to like..
*Don't feel like imagining* roll eyes...
After I pick up my current part time job, something is getting lesser? It's my fear.
Actually I have fear towards a new environment, or maybe working? I don't know but I'll feel like damn scare of something when I start to work, worst come to worst, I'll feel damn breathless. Remember the first time I work was at, suntec popular book fair. I'm damn afraid of everything there, manager, working mate everything. Until I saw familiar faces there, i realize it's a joy to work there, but it's only last 10 days.
The second job was at YN and my fear come up again. I told myself to calm down that time but nothing works. My legs were so heavy to move for work. I feel damn shag everyday. &I extremely hate weekends, cause I'm working only on the Friday Saturday and Sunday. My legs hurts like mad, and daily I just like doing nothing there. &I feel damn damn useless. I tried all ways to make myself useful, i tried all ways to make things right. But nothing works, the whole environment don't work on me. So school reopen, i stop working there.
I remember when my 9 days ended, i was like "YAY MAN IT FINALLY ENDED". At that time I realize, i prefer studying more then anything else! School is great, school is awesome, everything feel so damn good in school. Really.. You can say I'm timid, I don't mind. Cause i admit i am. I don't like to work, what i don't like. Get me?
&The 3rd job, was at Houyu? I enjoyed that job a lot, everything there were just too fun, I was there, to work, to learn and to enjoy. Maybe also part of the reason was working with my classmates? I felt that everyday there, was awesome to the max! No words could describe.
And yes, this is my 4th time working. Maybe you can say I'm lucky or what. But i seriously regretted not working when i was like 13. I really regretted.
But well, i enjoy my part time job now. I really do, cause people there are easy to click with. They ain't like giving me a face, like i owe them something, you know. Well...
I seriously don't like doing things when i don't have confidence. Like YN? i know nothing about there, i don't know everything. Even the methods of how they wash hair is so different from what i learn in school. I have no confidence to do ANYTHING. No one there cheer me up, only one of babe there. She is awesome. I guess without her around, I'm really going mad.
Forget it, I'll face it like a man! (this is what bf always tell me) But well.. I believe i can do it, i believe god will guide me, bless me!
I'll be like this guy! If I'm strong enough I'll pull the two man and bang them together. If I'm not strong enough i'll be killed by the two man pulling the string around my neck. How does it sound? Cool isn't it? HA.
or this ?
"I MUST WIN!! I'M STRONG!! "
this is good
I know it's random to say this but when I'm looking at this picture.. I was thinking if one day my boyfriend turns into a macho man, and I make him damn mad over something. I think if he box me, I'll fly to somewhere. Maybe a meter away? HAHA, before he box me, I'll kick his ass first :o So, watch out baby!!
p/s: Some people deserve my trust, some people don't.
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