It's not important anymore.

How long the smile last? Forever?

'Some'thing have been in my mind since yesterday, of course i'm not feeling very nice inside. It's not who's fault, but just me myself. I'm just trying to understand things and everything. Though i have alot of things i didn't say it out, last night. Blame me for that, i'm just so tired of explaining, explaining and explaining. I'm tired of that kind of life, i'm not happy at all, yes not happy. Though i promise myself to be happy, as life is short, but things just make me so tired! Sorry i'm a girl who is too emotion. & thats me. Though i'm smiling everyday, but it's just for the sake of not being a disgusting, emotion freak. Yes, i didn't say it out, my fault. Just that no matter how much i explain how much i say, i'm still doing the wrong thing, i'm still the princess that people need to tolerate, bear with me and agree whatever i'm doing. Am i right? Since feb till now, which time is people saying it isn't my fault? Which time? It's always me fault. Then i rather don't explain myself for the sake of everything! Just say it's my fault will do. I'm not blaming whoever, i just feel so breathe-less, so restless, and speechless. Forget it, no one yes i mean NO ONE will understand me. For goodness sake, leave me alone.

I'm crying again .. god save m.e. i lost the real me, until now, i finally remove my mask. that's the real me