what is it exactly ?

(598 Post) Hello strangers,

ok, just hope you people get this clear.
Imma girl, who dont understand myself.
i dont even have the courage to say what i feel inside.
if i really say out, i will try my best to avoid .
yes, im running away from problems.
yes, i rather people hate/misunderstand me.
but please understand, i dont have the courage
and this is the fact.
i dont know how i really feel exactly,
or should i say, i dont know what am i suppose to do exactly.

I am angry ? or am i too hopeless ?
I can act as if im brave, but please remember,
i am even weak inside .

i admit, im rather attitude recenlty.
i admit, i dont have a good mood recently.
but why ? why i become this way ?
because friends, because family, because of this word LOVE
Love is so scary, really . i can feel that i totally changed

just because of this word.

but love remind me, there is still people out there for me.
Thanks mummy, thanks xingan, thanks alot people .
im really sorry if i dont show that i appreciate .
But deep in heart, really thousand million of thanks really.
please dont leave me . i need you all so much so much .
and i know you all try very hard to make me smile,
yet still must see me throwing attitude. i know it's hard.
but .. thanks for being there for me .

& ..
guys, i have really enough.
stop entering my life in and out again, again & again.
Im really so sick and tired of it .
if once you're really meant it .
than thanks so much, if not, you are just a fool ok ?
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i might be refering to alot guys, or just one particular guy.
if you think you are one, than maybe once you are like that.
Reflect it, dont do to any girls like that anymore .
i can say. it's painful .

you might treat love as a game,

but do you know ? you hurt someone

who really care for you, love you, miss you.

maybe in future, you will never met this kind of girl

anymore. Dont regret if you lost them !

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