understand, i hope

Everyone can choose not to believe me, but not you my mum.
people can choose to look down on me, but not you my mum .
i though that all this while, you support me in my studies.
But who knows in fact, in your heart is all doubts .
Finally you said it out today .

It is more hurting than losting the important him.
yet you doesn't know, you didn't feel that it's so hurting.
Yet you blamed me, showing attitude. I'm sorry for that .
I can't do things which my own family doesn't give support.

finally i know, everything i do is not supported and trusted.
finally i know, and this fact is making me so so so sad.
whenever i go out, i will think will you be alone at home or not
Or will i drifted with this family or not. i worried so much,
yet .. changed is all doubt.

i thought of working hard because i wish im the part of the
reason you can be proud of . yet all is just doubt, i cried for
no reason again.

Http://distance-fear.blogspot.com.

My dearest charmaine,
I feel like adding something on .
Though she is with me, but i can feel her heart is thinking about you guys.
She keep thinking of that question how can she save.
And well, yes. She might be studying with me this few weeks.
but i hope you know she care for you girls
more than she does to me. I hope it dont affect any sistership of
you girls. (:

Xingann, i hate you so much ok ?. Cheer please