I thought it's like 1 weeks i haven't been blogging, but... IT'S ONLY 4 DAYS? HA, it's a long 4 days to me i guess?
Well, recently I'm damn stress up because of my projects, not a single day the thing stop appearing in my brain. I don't know how many brain cells of mine got killed because of this stupid project! I'm serious! Know whenever open my eyes in the big early morning I will start planning, What should i do today, what should i do tomorrow, did I manage my time well a not, will my models put my airplane, is the deadline coming, can i hand up by time a not, will this happen that happen! Wtf, i seriously stressed up
:(
On the other hand, I'm graduating soon. Still not sure about what should i do after i graduate from school. Continue my studies, or should i start working? But at times, i keep asking myself, am i really able work in this industry a not? As i mention before, being a hairstylist is not as easy as you think. A lot of my friends, have been telling me that. And frankly, what they told me, i seriously think I'm not suitable at all. I mean, the way i do things, is not really belongs to there. But i don't wanna waste what I've learned this two years. And if i don't continue this industry what should i do? I don't know my strength and my weakness. It's very long ago since i touch computer stuff, i might not remember if i gonna go back to computer. And.. everything gonna start from zero. Sometimes, life is so fiak-up. Can't rely on others to think for me, all i can do is, do things myself, walk myself, decide myself.
I still got a lot more things to learn in this industry, a lot more to face and go through. Should i continue running on the track or give up and find other track to run? I'm tired of thinking. Someone save me :(
I've got a lot of future path i want to go, but it's too unrealistic? I mean i can't really be one. My mom always say that, my mind is always changing. I won't stick to one. But what to do, the environment makes my thinking change. I wish i can continue this, but yet I scare I might give up half way through.
Plus, i'm having a big family problem now.
I'm not sure how can i help, but ... but i will just do what i can i guess?
*BIG SIGH*
Nothing goes well since the start of august. Sigh sigh sigh.
I'm not very happy now.
Imma sad girl
:(
Well, recently I'm damn stress up because of my projects, not a single day the thing stop appearing in my brain. I don't know how many brain cells of mine got killed because of this stupid project! I'm serious! Know whenever open my eyes in the big early morning I will start planning, What should i do today, what should i do tomorrow, did I manage my time well a not, will my models put my airplane, is the deadline coming, can i hand up by time a not, will this happen that happen! Wtf, i seriously stressed up
:(
On the other hand, I'm graduating soon. Still not sure about what should i do after i graduate from school. Continue my studies, or should i start working? But at times, i keep asking myself, am i really able work in this industry a not? As i mention before, being a hairstylist is not as easy as you think. A lot of my friends, have been telling me that. And frankly, what they told me, i seriously think I'm not suitable at all. I mean, the way i do things, is not really belongs to there. But i don't wanna waste what I've learned this two years. And if i don't continue this industry what should i do? I don't know my strength and my weakness. It's very long ago since i touch computer stuff, i might not remember if i gonna go back to computer. And.. everything gonna start from zero. Sometimes, life is so fiak-up. Can't rely on others to think for me, all i can do is, do things myself, walk myself, decide myself.
I still got a lot more things to learn in this industry, a lot more to face and go through. Should i continue running on the track or give up and find other track to run? I'm tired of thinking. Someone save me :(
I've got a lot of future path i want to go, but it's too unrealistic? I mean i can't really be one. My mom always say that, my mind is always changing. I won't stick to one. But what to do, the environment makes my thinking change. I wish i can continue this, but yet I scare I might give up half way through.
Plus, i'm having a big family problem now.
I'm not sure how can i help, but ... but i will just do what i can i guess?
*BIG SIGH*
Nothing goes well since the start of august. Sigh sigh sigh.
I'm not very happy now.
Imma sad girl
:(
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