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Huiyu's ranting *

ever since 16oct, i never have one day peace. I feel so moodless, restless and breatheless. I break down in school today, after crying out everything i still don't feel any better. Perhaps, i blamed myself for everything that i recieved today. Maybe everything really because of me so it causes that stain in my life. Maybe i couldn't accpect that fact, or maybe i couldn't face it at all. I'm weak after all, don't i ? Whenever i think back, i look back, i listen to some songs that i use to play that time, it remind me of everything everyone done to me. I appreciate it, i really do. But sadly, it's too late for me to cherish now. Maybe isn't late, maybe i'm wrong. But just that i doesn't know what to do, don't know what to do now. Causes me, restless breatheless and equals to moodless. As time goes by, hope my days will go better.

I'm too lucky that i didn't realise. & now i realise, is it too late? or it's a beginning only?

i miss.. miss the life i used to have. hope one day just that one day i could get it back.