Hoping tomorrow is another day

she loves him.

i just have to start with a very boring day !
i sleep till 8 plus, i woke up by my alarm ,because im suppose to
go temple with mummy. But im really too tired . so she went with
daddy . Sorry forgive me ! ):

To him ,to love;

im all mixed up now, feeling cornerd and rushed.
they say it's all my fault ,but i want him so many much.
im feeling for him what he's feeling for me.
i can try to pretend ,i can try to forget
but it's driving me mad ,going of my head.

i dont know whts going on in me ,myself.
i promise to write a story out of me ,myself and everything thats
happening. but things is going too fast ,i cant catch up. D:
Maybe ive really rely on you too much ,really so so much!
Unwilling *

anything ,everything but just have to accept it.
Its reality ,thats pushing me forward. but in my heart ,your love
no longer exits. no matter how much i rely on you.
i understand i just have to let go. Those wrong ,those mistake ive
done. The me ,that use to love you deeply need to walk forward ,
because this type of love is just a dream.

The hand i use to grab, the shoulder i use to lend ,the arms i use to
hold ,the eyes that look at me and the lips that i use to kiss.
it's dream ,dream! i never ever find it back.

I want to write a story of me ,myself. Trust me i wish to move on
with those love. Although between me& love ,theres a distance ,
a gap. Maybe with those distance ,those gap ,i felt lonely. but to
love ,believe me , i never want to neglect you at all. That moment ,
that second ,that unforgettable sence ,its sounds so right.
I know love is no longer with me. I know i am wrong.
Maybe is because i cared too much. maybe is hurt too deeply.

(sorry beloved readers ,will update a better one tomorrow.)
Songs intro : 北极星的眼泪 By Zhang Dong Liang