don't understand.

Yes i admit today i ain't happy at all!
Not a bit! Yes, i admit i went out because
i doesn't want to stay at home seeing faces,
got scolding for nothing. So what if they are qurrealing,
We ain't their dolls to scold for nothing?!
We are humans! I know they are having lots of
stress, and they having bad times qurrealing.
But why we have to be the one suffering.
(I'm trying to understand ,seriously)
Yes , so what i try to be good girl staying
at home, helping to do house work.
It's not appreciated. It's Natural or should
i say it's like a must? Okays, just treat as is a must.
But i still got scolding, so what if i be good girl?
They only think bad about me, say i smoke, i become bad.
What else they can see in me? They don't even believe me,
& what for i tell them the truth? Good results so?

I rather stay in school, work till tired & go home, sleep!
I rather lifeless! You know it's really hurting to see your family
member don't even understand you? They doesn't give me the security
to trust them a bit, not even a bit. In front of them, i'll always act
like their daughter in their heart, what for?
I cry for them, cause their qurreal, go school cry & cry,
But do they know? What they see is just me, using comp.
I hate it mans! How i wish i'm really JUST USING COMP!
DONT EVEN CARE OF EVERYTHING!


Everything just have to blame myself, not understanding enough.

` boyfriend, i'm really really tired.